Life

My life is so complicated. So much is happening at once. My mind is fried, but my heart is still beating. I don't wanna hold you back in life, You have so much in life that's going for you. I'm here,trying to get outta the shit I put myself in. I don't wanna drag you along with me while I try to find myself. I'm in love with you and I always will. I really don't know what to do. I really don't know how to explain myself. This isn't over.

Father I Never Had.

Finally, I had someone to talk to me. A Dad that I needed all my life. Tell me from right to wrong. Showing me how I can have a life. How family is everything, How even though my family can be a pain in the ass they'll always love you through thick and thin. I learned that you should never take your family for granted. "God Bless Our Family." - ChristianLeeEdraParonable

Incase I could't tell you.

I'm in love with you, only you. If I do get locked up, I hope we can work past our problems. You feel like the perfect person for me,completely opposite of me. I know why we fight, I know why we hurt, If you still feel the same way for me. I know we can work this out. Remember how we told each other even though it's getting hella tough on us we can still dig our self outta this shiit. We've conquered so much in the past and this is a whole different chapter. I love you CharisJhenAlbaniaMangulabnan.

Hella Random

Soo, I was looking through facebook and I see my arm around someone? Hella back in the daaay. Don't miss it at all, HAPPY THE WAY THINGS ARE NOW (:

Fucc You Shiit.

All I gotta say is fuc you. Greedy ass niggas, This and that. All you piss me the fucc off. Aint in the mood for shit, Tryna get my Shiit straight in a baad ass mood.

Lucky Bastards.

Schools coming up around 3weeks for a nigga that's suspended. BIIITCH, I actually gonna miss school. That bullshit part is I have to retake finals. Schools gonna be different this year, I promise.

Probation Department

The Day I got caught up, Is the day god opened my eyes. Living the life of a person I never wanted to be. Here's the consequences I face, Facing the facts that I have to make a big decision that can altar my future. Knowing that probation is the thing for me, showing me how Life can be used for better than worse. Probation here I Come, Future Here I Stand.

HAHA. LADIES.

Do you understand “guy-talk?” Can you comprehend all the subtle — and not-so-subtle — nuances of his secret language? If you’re a woman, chances are the answer is: sort of, kind of, er, not really. “Men don’t always say what they mean,” says Scott Haltzman, M.D., a clinical assistant professor of psychiatry and human behavior at Brown University and author of The Secrets of Happily Married Men. “And sometimes we say what we mean but women understand it completely differently.” All in all, that means that cracking the code can be difficult — but not impossible. To give you a head start, we talked to relationship experts and real guys to shed some light on some of a guy’s most common lines — and what in the world he really means by them.

What he says: “We should hang out some time.”
What he means: “I don’t want to flat-out ask you on a date and risk rejection, so first I’m going to gauge your interest.”
Why he says it: “This is the safest way to go,” says Ron Karmel. “If she says ‘yeah’ and gives you her number, you know you’re in, but if she just says ‘yeah’ and does nothing — you know it’s a no-go.” And with the male ego the way it is, this is the preferred way for him to find out. Says Haltzman, “It hurts to be rejected, so asking a woman out this way gives her a chance to pull away without the guy being embarrassingly turned down.”
What he says: “I really like your shoes.”
What he means: “I really like you.”

Why he says it: Granted, he could genuinely like your shoes. But if he says this during the early stages of dating, it also likely means he’s physically attracted to you — but doesn’t want to come right out and say it and seem like a dog. Ty Marciniak claims that this is one of the first things he says when he’s into a girl. “It boosts her confidence, but it also shows her I’m fashionable and sweet,” he says. “She’ll notice that I didn’t come right out and compliment her legs or something.” Which is, of course, what he really was complimenting in the first place. Get it?

What he says: “Maybe we should take some time off from each other — you know, take a break.”
What he means: “Maybe I’m better off keeping my options open.”
Why he says it: Seems harsh, but it’s common: “This kind of statement is driven by the man’s fear of hurting the woman or by wanting to have it both ways — having her without committing,” explains Alon Gratch, Ph.D., a clinical psychologist and author of If Men Could Talk. Problem is, women often take “the break” at face value. Trust me, if a guy is crazy about you, he’ll want to spend as much time with you as possible, period.

What he says: “I am listening!”
What he means: “I’m listening, but I really don’t want to get into a long, emotional discussion right now.”
Why he says it: When a guy zones out, women generally interpret that to mean he’s shut her off. More likely he’s just overwhelmed. “Men process verbal information better when it’s direct and to the point,” says Haltzman. Scott Borchert agrees. “When I say this, it usually means I just wish she’d get to the point sooner,” he says. One way around this is to ask him for his advice — guys love to fix problems — or to make sure he’s primed for a marathon talk session. So rather than launching right in, say, “This story’s kind of involved — can you listen now or should we talk later?”

What he says: “You’re just too good for me.”
What he means: “I need out of this relationship.”
Why he says it: “I’ve said that many times, but not once have I meant it,” admits Ron. “What I meant was I needed an out in the relationship, but I wanted to make her feel good about it.” Another popular alternative to this is the, “You deserve someone better than me” line. So why can’t guys just come out and tell you the truth? Unless you’re new to the planet Earth, you may have noticed men aren’t big on having talks — particularly breakup talks. In fact, they’ll say anything to avoid them, such as buttering you up so you don’t chew them out. “Men don’t go to places they’re afraid of,” says Gratch. “We don’t like to go where we might have to open up about feelings.” Did he just say feelings? Blech!

What he says: “I think I’m falling in love with you.”
What he means: “I am this close to saying the L-word, but I can’t bring myself to say it just yet and when I do say it, I want to be sure you’ll say it back.”
Why he says it: Ron calls this an “in-between line” — it’s a warm-up act to “I love you,” and it tests the waters to see if she’s feeling the same way. For women, talking about your emotions and exposing your vulnerabilities is a way to bond with another person, “but men don’t view exposing your vulnerabilities as a positive,” says Haltzman. “They don’t want to appear weak.” That’s why words like “thinking” and “falling” come in very handy — they give him an out. But they also allow him to express something meaningful in a way only he understands. Hopefully, now you will, too.

Stay up .

Damn, I'm still up plus I'm downstairs. I guess I have to face the facts that I'm scared to disappoint all the adults in the house. Ironically, they seem pretty chill about me getting in trouble. My favorite Uncle hasn't talk to me yet, guessing he's hella disappointed at me.. All I have to do is be good & show them I'm capable of staying out of trouble. No weed for me, no stogs, no drinking. Just to prove to them and myself that I have a future and I could do it. bkabyCrkeeper already knows how I'm suppose to change & babylove thinks probation is good for me. Hope So. Fuck behind bars, Good boy here I come.

Fucked Up Bed Time .

Call me nocturnal but, damn I'm feening to fall in love with it. Waking up to babylove & her bestfriend yesterday making my day. Remarkable how I can blog now, even though I'm lazy I get my shit done. Bb & Me been our best like I never saw before.

CIGARETTE .

CALM THE FUC DOWN FROM THIS SHIT, I LOVE YOU AS AN UNCLE. Even though we fight and argue, Your still family and I care about you.




Auntie Mercy & Me buying stogs for my Uncle.

CAUGHT UP .

Lets say I left my door open, Isn't that stupid when you have a conversation and your parents listen to you. Hell yeah, getting caught up isn't what I expected. So learning my lesson from my mistakes is a big PLUS. The concept here is never leave your fuccing door open, and never ever let your guard down.

Undescribable .

First post on blog spot, Yeah. ChristianLeeParonable blogs? Never fully believe the naked eye.You can call it amazing, you can call it impossible, but never jump to conclusions until you actually know the person. It's the first blog that gives a sense of how much people are wrong jumping into conclusions right away. For a fact I wouldn't even believe myself, in how people can actually be. Well life's just a mystery full of questions, full of answers, and full of deception. That's why I wonder each and everyday of how my life can be fulfilled. Wondering when the day of everything can finally settle down. Intriguing how my life has been now, change, love, family, and friends. All drastically created a huge impact in my life and in others. Friends no longer friends, homies no longer homies. Whats happening, Change or is it just meant to be. Just making the best out of everything each and everyday. Learning what I'm capable of, grasping the aggregated amount of knowledge that a normal human being can consume. Acknowledging in how a girl can truly change a guy, changing a guys player ways. It'll just take time until everything sinks in. Right now you can believe, I'm just another ordinary guy in school, that's just under the category of a druggie, a alcoholic, and a guy that stogs. Those guys that are just straight up bad in school, that causes trouble. Yeah that was me, honestly that's still a part of me. A part of me that is vanishing. A part of me that I've been trying to change this whole entire time. Reasons for why I acted that way, reasons for how I figured out how to climb myself out of that shit hole. Now I can say I have a life to live for, A life that has a future. September 3rd here I come.